I love birthdays and no matter how much I downplay it, I always love the BIG FUSS from ALL of my friends on my special day. If you're a friend and you forgot about it, you are definitely fried! Well, that was before Birthday 2004.

This birthday is different from any other since:
1) I don't have work. Ugh, don't remind me. I am actually HATING it majorly.
2) The odd number 26 is just so ODD! I am no longer "mid-twentys" but nearing "late-twentys". The big 3s is just so scary!
3) I don't have anyone to share it with. Period.

Christmas, Birthdays, Valentine's are all freakin' the same. No matter how much you ignore it, you always go back to that BIG NAGGING feeling inside you that you don't have anyone to share it with. No birthday surprises or escapades (not even a lousy gift), no snuggling on the cold month of December and the dateless dinner come February. I haven't been in a relationship for almost three years but despite that I always have this "someone" (those almost-but not quite guys or those special friends that are not a boyfriends) around come my birthday. I know that some of them might not even be close to the real thing with genuine feelings...but still...there was someone who texted/called when the clock strikes 12 to have the honor of greeting you before the rest of the world. If you are luckier, there will be a bunch of flowers waiting for you the next day at work. Okay, okay, don't get me wrong, I know it's shallow to even discuss this. But there's just something about birthdays that makes one go sentimental for no reason at all. Well, it's probably about the big reminder that you are turning another year ALONE.

But there is ONE guy in my life right now. I am not exactly SURE about it because of the complexities of our current situation but deep inside I know that I am longing and yearning. Earlier this evening, I did a little SIGNS test ala La Coronado style. *grins* If he will not text, I should accept the fact that we are just friends. If he cannot even remember the date when I was born what more about the other stuff, right? However, if he will take it further and give me a call...hmmm...then it's definitely something good.

I did get my wish! I got the message 36 minutes before my actual birthday. I was deliriously happy. Here's his message:

Happy Birthday, Sweetie! Tanda mo na din. Hehehe!
Enjoy and have a good one, okay?

There! My sweetie! : ) I replied that I'm touched because he remembered and he said that "of course, he remembered!". The text doesn't really say anything but it definitely made my day despite the numerous setbacks. Ohhh! It's no biggie but he was the very 1st person who greeted me "before the rest of the world".